Orange & Awkward

So, I have seriously neglected this transverse page and all of my pent up blog emotions. So sad.

However, the good news is, I am scarcely online! Which is a good thing in terms of not being so attached to my computer, or AIM, or facebook, or websurfing.

But sometimes I am just out of the loops. I don’t know. My computer heats up my room pretty quickly, so I try avoiding it. And on days that I do use my comooter, I probably use it for half an hour tops now and then leave it on for the rest of the day. (Not so good for the Annieman and S.kao!

Bonnie is all grown up now and it’s weird. Still weird. After one year at UCI, it’s like high school or K-12 never happened. I guess it’s normal to adapt and adjust so quickly to different lifestyles after you give it a shot. Or maybe it’s easier to embrace change than dwell on it. I don’t know.

Yet, I felt that today of all days, where I am hopelessly doing nothing on the computer, was a good time to blog. I am fine, I am well. The beginning of my summer I can say we nothing more than useless, as I made myself comfy in the TranKao-KaoTran home. After many days/weeks of finding a suitable job, Wells Fargo was nice enough to give me a job and it feels like I never did experience boredom. But all I do is go to work, come home and watch House, eat/sleep..and yada. I miss San Diego. I miss SD comfort. But mostly I miss my amigos because they’re all in one spot and I’m not. :[ Loneliness is a rather torturing emotion, but the ew makes up for it.

Uhm. Time for sleep!

hello world.

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i just thought it was really funny. :] toodles!

charlie finally remembered to tell me the password to my little transverse account. now i can finally tell my life story in one day. kind of.

for those of you who still check this, wow. you must’ve been angry seeing nothing posted for half a year or so. HAHAHA. sorry.

much to be expressed! but not in an expressive mood. love thhhhheeeeeee

It’s weird that I’ve had this blog for about a good two years. And I think they’re vital years probably. I deleted all my old entries when I left xanga and that might have been for the better or worse.

For all those who intend on asking me how college life/how UCI is, it’s good. The people are nice, the school is clean, and overall very welcoming. I still feel burnt out, or maybe it’s just I don’t feel as eager as I used to be. Or, I might be making up excuses for this indescribable feeling I got. I’ll admit though, college is very different. And I feel like I am taking advantage and not taking advantage of certain things. For instance, I am definitely not taking advantage of my time here. A lot of times I come back to my dorm to fall asleep. I am definitely taking advantage of my parents. I feel like their money right now is being used to finally ’spread my wings’ in a sense of doing everything they wouldn’t approve of. I’m still keeping it Bonnie-18. Don’t worry, nothing too … unnecessary is happening. I am happier though.

I am slowly becominnnnnnngg. No, I’m really lazy.

I am writing this entry because I, once again, feel that I am neglecting myself of interesting stories for future references. And you, too, I guess. However, since I do not have anything particularly interesting to tell .. I’ll post an old story about Target.

TB TRAN’S WORST GUEST: THE WOMAN WITH THE COUPONS.
Okay, so I’ve only had this woman once before, and she had like 332597236902736.33333 coupons on her. She’ll always reach around $700 worth of purchases, and then give me 3,000 coupons. Usually if guests come in with some coupons that don’t automatically show up and you have to manually accept them, it’s okay because there’s only like 5 coupons. But this WOMAN. She’d use 8 coupons for this one item and try to get more money off than what it was originally priced. I remember before I kept on pressing “Accept Coupon” over and over and over but this time in my head I was thinking ‘I just really can’t let this woman get away with it anymore.’ And ALSO. [From memory] She had this Return gift card that had more than $100 on it. Which is VERY unusual. I don’t know if you’ve ever seen it, but the Return gift card is this small gift card basically, but you’d have to get it from our Guest Services. And usually when people return with great amounts like $100+, they want it back on their credit card/etc. So I remember that was suspicious the first time I rang her up when it was a while back.

Anyways, onto my story. So I’m giving this woman a little grief about limiting her coupon use. Like saying, “This coupon is actually for something you didn’t even purchase. Can you look for it please?” At first, (which means the first 16 coupons) I was looking for the items myself through the bags to justify the fact that it was okay for me to accept the coupons, but after a while it was RIDICULOUS. Honestly. And then Farzin, who was the GSTL (Guest Service Team Leader) aka the supervisor at that time saw me doing this whole transaction. And ALSO, keep in mind, this was during a time of check out rush. I had to turn off my light, which isn’t very helpful, while this crazy FOB woman .. who was like I don’t know. Middle Eastern. Mexican. Plain Crazy Woman. Just wasn’t helping the situation. I know she’s done this before, purchasing $$$$$$ of stuff using 20396729036729067 coupons with her $500 suspicious giftcards. Wait, right back to Farzin. Anyways Farzin came over and MAN. She was like the MAN about the whole situation. She was all “Imma stick a can up yo ..

Well, maybe it didn’t go like that. However, she did tell the woman straight up that she shouldn’t do this anymore. Like if she knew she had a gillion coupons then she should set them up beforehand. So it honestly took me at least 15-30 minutes to do this woman’s whole transaction. Not the scanning, the COUPON-ing. It was still quite honestly RIDICULOUS. I wanted to strangle this woman, but only after I could stuff some coupons down her throat. Then she started babbling about never coming to our store again and started to give me some of her items back that she didn’t want since her “coupons” didn’t work. In the end, when I was done, she used this gift card that had $200 on it. [Suspicious alert] And then, she used a second one that had roughly $200 left on it after she used it. So Farzin asked her where she got the giftcard from because you know, no one with the right common sense would really want that much on a giftcard unless that was the only possible way. And this woman had like 4 of these Return giftcards in her wallet. So the GSTL is questioning her and the woman was REALLY giving her these bogus answers. “Oh, I don’t remember where it came from. I think my mother gave it to me. Oh yes, my mother.” and yada yada ye.

Anyhoo, I really don’t know how it ended. This was merely my part. Not to get you excited or anything. Actually, I typed up this story a while ago. I feel like I’m over it now and I think people SUCCCK. But whatever, I still have fun.

Do I really wave both of my hands a lot? Because my co-workers make fun of me for that. I honestly don’t know how people can put up with jobs for more than three months. Rachel considers Jamie, her, and me “Veterans” of our job. But that’s just understandable, we’re hard workers and we learn quickly (enough) and we’ll do the most just to get things done until it’s DONE. Wait a minute, I’m leaving for college this Saturday. SICK!

I haven’t really packed all that much yet. I had a cleaning frenzy for a couple of house and packed a good amount of my clothes into a box .. but then several days later I need things to wear so it’s gotten messy by now. Really now, I only need to wash those clothes, pack them again, pack my computer, pack my bath stuff, double check what I really need again, and some etc etc stuff. Although I only leave about an hour away .. I want to get it all in by the first trip. Adjust quickly? I hope the first year sticks it to me and maybe give me my defining point. You know, that point where you know where you want to be, and you’re there. OR even, that time where I can be blissfull and .. ecstatic about everything for myself.

I know it wasn’t the grandest of ideas, but I did decide to work til the last possible moment. Wednesday will be my last day working at Target until fall quarter ends. Thursday thank GOODNESS will be my last day at Taekwondo. Yet, I’ll really miss the kids. I can’t help but appreciately the innocence in kids and how cute they are because they’re just freaking hilarious. Their shyness, outgoingness, and being a kid. My favorite student is this kid named Shawn who is this little, tubby Hispanic kid that’s oblivious to all the right things. I don’t know how that works, but he’s so darn sweet. He always has his little chub sticking out and I frequently have to pull up his pants. He’s almost like a plumber gone cute. Haha.

There are these three people in my life that I don’t think know how much I appreciate their individualities. Their differences, similiarities, and connections to me. Excluded many times, yes, but loved consistently. It would be selfish to say that they were here to mold me what I am today, but I love how I’m turning out to be because of trademarks they left. There has never been a true dedication to you because it’s weird to have one, but thanks.

And on a last note, yes I am excited for college. And no, I am not excited for college.

I still look at the Odd News on Yahoo. I guess habit after Gov Class.

MOSCOW (Reuters) - Russia is to create its first women-only traffic police unit because commanders believe they are less corrupt than men, a newspaper reported Monday.
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The male-dominated traffic police routinely forgive traffic violations in exchange for bribes. Many believe this culture helps make Russia’s roads among the world’s most dangerous: about 35,000 people are killed in accidents each year.

“The first female platoon of 26 traffic officers will patrol the center of Volgograd (in southern Russia),” Izvestia daily quoted regional police chief Mikhail Tsukruk as saying.

“There is research which proves that women are not inclined to bribe-taking,” the paper quoted him as saying. A few women already serve in the traffic police.

I’ve been meaning to write an entry lately, but nothing ever seems to satisfyingly end? I don’t know. But these thoughts have been a collective few for I don’t know how long. I guess you can tell for yourself. Because of a certain, smelly reader I’m just going to post this draft. I forget what’s it’s all about but here you go:

I guess you could say that lately I’ve been excited about being more of an ‘adult’. This summer I officially got a debit card, a job, and paid for stuff with my own money. Then I got rid of my debit card, got another one with a credit card, and became a new member of the people-who-are-trying-to-get-good-credit club. AKA PWATTGGCC. Yeah, go ahead. Try saying it outloud.

At my orientation the spopers [like link leaders] were really pushing students to do activities because a majority of them regretted not doing anything til their jr/sr year. I can only imagine myself wandering around doing nothing though. The thing is, I really want to do nothing. I figured I’ve done so much for college that it’s my chill time. Have I become too burnt out to be active? I hope not. I guess like always it takes crowds to get excited because, you know … It gets lonesome being the only one having fun. Can you peer-pressure comfort? Hmm.

Lately I’ve really been into Jon Stewart’s Daily Show. Because I’m so good at insomnia, I stay up late watching it on youtube. And it’s funny reading the comments. Some people will argue how much of an influence he really is and how he should acknowledge the effect he has on people .. while others just say “COMEDY CENTRAL.” Meh.

This entry has been compiled over the last couple weeks/days. Drafts til now. Today I had a bad day at work, but I got three target braclets. Yaay.

ALRIGHT. James Franco is my new hero because he inspires me to possible mold my one pack into a 1.5. In Annapolis he had this rockin’ eight pack going on and it was very nice. Nice. :] Can you sayy hiiigghhhliigghhhttt. And that is my attraction for the day! Go away now.

Thought: I really don’t know what kind of natural science I should take. I want to take Physics of Music but hesitant. But I’m also kind of interested in Cosmology: Man’s Place in the Universe. Or some sort of Human Development class. I have until Wednesday 6 o’clock to decide and the academic advisor who called me has not been very useful because she hasn’t been returning my calls. I’m still debating whether I should take Humanities Core of Writing 39b. I don’t want

Well, you can tell that’s an unfinished thought. Update: I got really crappy classes and that will be the talk of my next entry. NO MORE COMPLAINING.

alright.. well i’m going to join the bandwagon and do survey/work talk. although i talked about target in my last entry, sucks for you i am blogging again about it.

[not mocking jamie of course]
FIFTEEN THINGS YOU MAY NOW KNOW ABOUT BONNIE’S BEHAVIOR AT WORK:

1. Only adults over 40 mock me when I ask if they’ll be paying on their REDCARD. Particularly the ones that think they can be funny because they heard me ask the person in front of them. I laugh in my head and smile when I “accidentally” rip their receipt. Or crush their goods. In the bags, of course.

2. I feel awkward when I get Mexican customers. It’s not because they’re Mexican; it’s because I don’t know whether it’d be more awkward for me to bust out some Spanish or to continue rambling in English.

3. At Target we do not get people to bag things, the cashiers do. Bonnie does small things to products to get a little pleasure when guests treat her badly.

4. At least once a day a person tells me why it’s so horrible to get a Target Credit card. A) Interest B) Too many=Bad C)Other. Every single person thinks they’re the only person experiencing it.

5. I always have at least one elderly person that has a problem hearing me. I don’t know if it’s more proper to yell or point and come closer to their face and say their total.

6. I have a new tolerance for people who are indecisive. It’s even lower. Giving me your go-backs is okay, just don’t give me half of your cart.

7. Back to school stuff is our seasonal section now. Countless people have been buying school products in large quantities and I shudder when I see a woman walking down my lane with 3000 boxes of crayons, markers, pencils, and etc. Because although they’ll tell me how many they’ve got, I still have to count to make sure.

8. People think I am THE Target. Like I am the woman who makes all things ‘Target’. I purposely made no more of that _____ in stock. I make the temperature in the store rather high. I made your baby cry in the store. I know in my interview I said I wouldn’t mind being a scapegoat, but are people really that eager to find someone to blame for their problems? Good grief, get out of the store already.

9. I love “guests” who are loveable families. I love 7 year old boys who help their mom put stuff in the cart and be so behaved. I love seeing good mothers at work. I love seeing fathers with their wives and babies like a family. It makes me feel like there is still hope in the future. These are the people I care to put their bags in the cart for. Muahahaha.

10. Fobs think they can get away from me asking them questions, BUT I’LL ONLY REPEAT THEM MORE!

11. The woman’s bathroom always has someone who takes a #1,2,3,4,5,235235 EVERY HOUR. And it’s gross because I always have a restroom check. I don’t understand why but I mean as females, there’s not much we have to aim for. But for some reason there is a couple of people a day that have this interpretation that if they don’t flush it or just leave it THERE … it’s okay. NOT OKAY FOR ME THANK YOU VERY MUCH. So as I am grossed out, I sing the Yoplait song. she wore an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini ..

12. well, i’ve lost my train of thought again. it’s really hot and i’m so tempted to jump out my window. until later .. this shall be continued!

12.

time for a new entry.

So I’ve definitely been working a lot more lately and it’s good. For those who don’t know, while I was working at Target there was a woman from the Bank of America who offered me a job because she liked the way I treated our “guest”. After much debate in my head I decided that I won’t take it. But I’d still like to come in and talk to her. I think I’m doing that this friday. I’ll probably look for a bank job up in irvine if I can’t get a job on campus.

One of my favorite quotes is “Live like there’s no tomorrow, love like you’ve never been hurt before, work like you don’t need the money, and dance like there’s nobody watching.” And by favorite quotes I mean something to live by, right? I think the hardest one to live by is to love like you’ve never been hurt. I know I hold grudges and that I’m usually pent down to the ground because of all the stuff I’ve got on my shoulders. It really is hard to forgive and forget because I eventually remember most things I think have been horribly done to me. But hey, what are you going to do? I expect to wake up the next morning to live on, so I’m trying to live on and on with less ignorance and stupidity.

Now another thing, “As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others hearts. You’ll blame a new love for things an old love did. You’ll fight with your best friend, you’ll cry because time is flying by, and you’ll eventually lose somebody you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely and love like you’ve never been hurt, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.”

I think Rachel got the picture part down.

Man, I can honestly got for a chicken leg right now. Seriously, some KFC is craving in the stomach.

I’ve just been distracted by Rachel, Jamie, and Lena. It’s funny how things end up. end of entry! Waiting for more inspiration to come.

edit –> 1:15 AM

Im the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
Im so sorry that Im falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Dont let me fall out of love

alright, i’m rather tired from looking up lyrics and roaming around the net. Let me give you more of an update. On … nothing else but I guess Target because it consumes much of my time. Plbeh.

So I have actually been doing really well. I’m more comfortable and I think I’m flashing my light off less at the register.. meaning I can answer most of the peoples’ questions! If I haven’t updated yet, I have 8 official target wristbands! I get one for every customer that wants a Target RedCard from me. :] But it’s scary because I thought it’d be okay if I got one and then just paid it off really quickly. HOWEVER, there was this customer that took the time to clarify to me that the more credit cards you get, the worse your credit is. More credit is like bad credit? You lose I think 3-5 points. I didn’t even know it was on a point system. Anyways, I made a Wells Fargo account today and my .. banker? Guy told me that you had to have a credit card for a minimum of three years before people even start looking into your credit. I figured I’d keep my credit card in a safe for three years and not use it, but you have to use it a little so it really doesn’t look like you’re not using it. T____T; Are there are lot of Wells Fargo banks in Irvine?? Note to self: check the banks around Irvine.

The elderly people who shop at Target give the nicest, and rather awkward compliments/comments. The other day this man said, “Thank you for being so happy.” I just kept smiling. And you’re welcome? I try to be different at work and always be happy and cheery because I figure everyone who shops there is all groggy from their own work. I’m happy being paid to smile and scan. Target work happy feels different than ASB work happy because I guess I actually like what I’m doing. Or maybe it’s because I know the people have to leave and I won’t remember them. I probably should’ve looked further into being someone’s receptionist, but hey .. I still love Target. I’m not exactly making bank but I’m not not excatly not. not.

Does anyone feel different at all that we’re out? I mean .. the graduates wise? Or does it feel like a weekend that’s never ending. Or maybe a vacation that’s never-ending. Do you think we ever REALLY left any legacy behind? I don’t know if it’s important or not, but I’d like to feel I made some sort of footprint.

Last night I was on the net surfing again and I had nothing to do. I remember the time when everybody was obsessed with asian fanfics and I, myself, was fascinated. So I decided that I would kill time by reading some, however they were ALL SO LAME. So I picked up a book and started to read but I fell asleep. Hah.

Couldn’t life be more like this?

This is my summer.